I am so not impressed at this moment in time. I didn't workout today even though I left work a little early because I chose to prepare a wonderful birthday for our son Josh and his girlfriend, Courtney. It was our first visit with Courtney and I wanted everything to be nice. I should probably workout now that they are gone but I'm tired, frustrated and just want to vent before I go to bed.
This is day two of journalling and I can see that there is a lot of work ahead of me. I eat too much! Why am I always hungry??? I don't do hardly any physical activity anymore so why do I feel like a football linebacker 6x a day???
Yesterday I asserted self-control and did some exercise and squeaked by with a calorie deficit of -118 calories. Today, I again exercised self-control (compared to me without the journal), I don't feel like ever felt completely full today, didn't get any exercise beyond a short stroll with my family, and I was a whopping +701.5 calories over!!! I had a minute portion of steak, passed up the potatoes, corn, butter and Baskin Robin's Ice Cream Cake and I still completely overloaded on calories. Aghhhh!
I realize that journalling is only a mirror of my behaviours and this information is important to my healthful progression but I liked it so much better when I was in blissful oblivion. Numbers can be cold and unmoving. The reality is however, that this is happening whether I hold the mirror up or not.
The numbers are the real thing and I am going to have to learn to deal if I want them to work in my favour. In the past, reality like this would send me running to unhealthy, weight-loss based, who-cares-about- health-really diet and for a while I would feel in control.
This time is different. I'm going to continue eating the high quality foods that I have learned to love, but I am going to have to say that awful word to myself a little more often. You know, the "N..word". "NO". I've had practise with saying "no" to coffee and later, saying "no" to sugar. Now I'm going to have to learn to say "no" to extra servings, bigger portions and those "just one more bite" moments.
I'm also going to have to concentrate on my success...the little ones throughout the day like I mentioned above. Seriously, I did really good at dinner tonight and I didn't overeat today. Tomorrow will be better.
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Hey Melissa - they are teaching us at weight watchers to find the more filling foods. Perhaps the foods you are choosing aren't filling enough?
ReplyDeleteVery true, my weight watcher's friend.
ReplyDeleteMy challenge however, is that in the past I filled myself up with low-calorie foods that contained artificial sweeteners. Nothing like a coffee or a diet coke to keep me energized between meals or a artificially-sweetened treat to make me feel satisfied.
Now, I need to balance the nutrient dense foods I'm eating with lots of raw fruits & veggies so that my meals have more bulk. Of course, there's nothing wrong with letting my stomach shrink a little either!
Thanks for the advice!